Friday, August 09, 2024

Faire is the heaven. Remembering Ian Keatley and John Walker

It has been a tough week in Southwark. A week to look for God, if not always to find God easily. Amid much else, events have made me stop and consider the ways I've had my own gaze turned towards God across the years.

No big unmistakable miracles, nor encounters on the Damascus road for me, but often the silent gospel of a life lived according to the law of love, and so often heaven brought close through the compelling power poetry or of music in worship.

I  was a teenager when I served as Head Chorister in my school choir, directed by John Walker. We singers adored him forming our own community around him as he helped us to use our gifts to make the intoxicating magic of choral music.  

JW was loud, funny (often sharing  very slightly naughty jokes to the delight of his teenage audience) and deliciously irreverent about many of the trappings of life in a minor public school. He must have been an impossible colleague at times, causing the Headmaster many a sleepless night for some of the self same reasons his choristers loved him. Expansive both in girth and hospitality  he was generous in all things but was utterly serious about only two: the pursuit of excellence in music for worship and (though he rarely spoke of this directly) the love of the God to whom our worship pointed.

The morning after my father died he changed the music list for the school Eucharist so our anthem was Jesu joy of man's desiring ."You'll need Bach", he said.

Looking back, those two years singing for John were among the most formative of my life as he gave me a gift that has endured ever since....of looking beyond the music to the beauty of God that inspired it. I'm not the only one of his singers to find myself ordained...

This week here at Southwark we are all reeling under the shock of the sudden, death on holiday in Austria, of our own director of music Ian Keatley.  This morning I find myself reflecting on the ways in which Ian's passion for music, his perfectionism, his utter focus in worship will have impacted those who sang for him.

To watch him conducting, to see the chemistry between him and the choristers, was to see what Irenaeas described as "the glory of God, a human being fully alive". To hear the excellence he drew from them time and time again was to find yourself arriving on holy ground even on a gloomy evening in a near empty cathedral.  Of course I will treasure memories of his grand occasions, the installation of Dean Mark, my first Southwark Easter, the extraordinary diocesan festival which crammed the nave with choirs from near and far for a glorious Choral Evensing extraordinaire. I'll never forget his last service, when the Cathedral Singers led Evensong for the Church Commissioners: fabulous music, flawlessly performed and comp,iments flowing as generously as the champagne afterwards.

But I'll treasure too the random moments: meeting him in the link leading the boys choir back to the Song School from their Sunday lunch he stopped them dead and demanded they offer "Three cheers for the Precentor!"...the times when our meetings ended in gales of helpless laughter...his kindness when I fluffed the Responses.

And my strongest memory: standing in the quire after the 1st lesson on a day when a tummy big meant that Ian had suggested the unthinkable: that he might pass on conducting Evensong to his second in command. That didn't happen. Come 5.25 he was there with the choir for inevitably his longing to be with his singers outweighed any vestigial queasiness. As I watched I could seee him drawing energy and strength from being in the centre of their music, the way his focus on each singer brought out the best in them, even when they were uncertain they had a "best" to give.

He was so very alive, and this made the rest of us more alive as well, as Ian used his gifts that the music might throw open windows onto heaven

So...we are shocked, bereft, but deeply grateful to have travelled with him across holy ground in the worship of the place he loved, and in the service of the God he loved.

In that light we dare to look forward too.

So listen...to words from poet  Stuart Henderson, that look for the resurrection of the dead and the life of the world to come

this day in paradise

new feet are treading through

high halls of gold


this day in paradise

new legs are striding over jewelled fields in which

the diamond

is considered ordinary


this day in paradise

new eyes have glimpsed the deep fire ready

to flame the stale earth pure


this day in paradise

new blood, the rose red juice that gushed at golgotha

now ripples and races down the pure veins

of a recently arrived beloved


this day in paradise

a new heart pounds in praise

a new body shaped by sacrifice


this day in paradise

the daunting dart of death

has no point

no place

and no meaning


and whilst we mourn and weep

through these human hours

this day in paradise

the blazing embrace

between saviour and son goes on and on and on..

Friday, August 02, 2024

An awful lot of bread!

Be gentle, when you touch bread,

Let it not be uncared for, unwanted.

So often bread is taken for granted.

There is so much beauty in bread,

Beauty of sun and soil,

Beauty of patient toil.

Winds and rain have caressed it,

Christ often blessed it;

Be gentle when you touch bread.


What's on my mind? Bread! 

One way and another there has been a lot of it about the place this week.


On Wednesday I found myself, to my considerable surprise, standing in the pulpit of Tewkesbury Abbey, following an invitation to their very beautiful Musica Deo Sacra Festival.

As a Gloucester ordinand and priest, with a serious addiction to church music, MDS was a regular source of wonder and delight...so it felt like a daunting privilege to be asked to preach. In the event, the Spirit danced the music was glorious (Finzi Welcome O sacred feast is beyond words when sungvin context, at the Offertory) and I was surprised and delighted by the appearance of several friends from days of yore, including my WEMTC Principle, Richard Clutterbuck, the lovely John and Rachael Willard, Simon Fletcher and someone whose path crossed mine at a time of deep tragedy for her family, which remains one of the most formative experiences of my priesthood.

With blessings like that to celebrate, the preach was all but incidental, and the wonderful hospitality  of Molly and Hannah Faith Barraclough  (extended to Willow too) and the warm welcome of Nick Davies  looking very at home in his new context, really carried the day.


Thursday, of course was Lammas Day, and in my very own Voices of Morebath moment I got to preside at the Loaf Mass after Mark Oakley had pronounced Decanal blessings on our excellent neighbours in Borough Market, Bread Ahead. The amazing smells that emerge from the bakery every day, the perfection of the cinnamon buins and the friendliness of the entire team make Bread Ahead a blessing to us, so welcoming them to the cathedral was delightful.

The day before Nick had talked about how conscious he is of the Abbey's past when he presides at the high altar, of those who have prayed and consecrated there before him. I had a similar sense of long gone congregations gathering for the loaf mass, hopeful for the harvest, deeply connected with dependent on the cycle of seasons we would seem to override today.

What would they have made of a woman at the altar, going home to eat food she had not grown, living in a world replete with plenty for some, whole others are ground down by poverty?

I was glad to be forced to confront the questions...


In case you're interested, here's what I said at the Abbey. The intention was Thanksgiving for the Blessed Sacrament, the readings those for Corpus Christi


When I was a student I had a good friend named Jack. He was extremely tall (particularly when standing next to my 5’4”) and carried not an ounce of surplus weight. He was a great cook and a famous host, but the meals I remember him by most clearly were those I never actually got to eat. You see, Jack was generous with his invitations to afternoon tea, and his rooms were only a short walk from one of Cambridge’s better bakers. When he was expecting guests, Jack would set forth to Tyler’s, on a mission to buy bread for the tea-party. Unfortunately, on more than one occasion the smell of the new bread, and its fresh-baked warmth proved too hard to resist, and he would arrive back in his rooms with only the stub end of the loaf, having consumed the rest on the walk between bakery and college. Legend has it that on one occasion at least, he visited the bakery 3 times before actually making it home with an untouched loaf. Bread from Tylers was pretty wonderful, but for someone Jack’s size, one loaf was only a short-term solution.


I often think of Jack as I break the bread at the Eucharist. 

Of course, we generally use wafers, and sometimes people complain sadly that they bear no resemblance to real bread at all. 

Actually, that's no bad thing. There’s no room for confusion. We’re not eating a “proper meal” together, but taking part in something quite different, whose value lies far beyond any standard nutritional benefit. The fragment of unleavened wafer we receive becomes something much greater than itself, for it is here that we are offered Christ, in all the fullness of his risen life. 


In our gospel this morning, John sets out to demonstrate that Jesus is the One for whom Israel was waiting, and to do this he aligns Jesus with Moses...To understand his technique, we need to remember that for the Jews, the Torah (the first five books of the Hebrew Bible) provided a constant frame of reference. The contents of these books were not abstract concepts for the Jew - these were living words, pregnant with layers of meaning, and each new generation of Jews felt themselves living in the story in some way….in the same way, of course as we find ourselves living in the story whenever we gather to make Eucharist. 


So John’s Jesus is inviting his hearers into an exercise in anamnesis as he evokes memories of the defining period in Jewish history, the Exodus from Egypt, and recalls God’s provision of manna, “bread from heaven”. 

This was the freedom food, which enabled God’s people to travel onwards to the place they had been promised. 

The food which sustained them, and made it possible for them to live as a people on the move, following wherever God lead them. 

The bread of life, but for one day only.

You see, though this food seemed miraculous, it had to be consumed on the day it appeared, or it rotted and became worthless. 

The Israelites were not allowed to build up prudent supplies in case of crisis. 

They just had to trust God’s provision, day after day after day.


Now Jesus compares himself with that bread…in terms guaranteed to have any observant Jew sitting bolt upright on the edge of this seat

I am the living bread


I AM is the name God gives himself when he meets Moses, at the burning bush 

 Say I AM has sent you. 

And so Jesus identifies himself with God and urges the crowd 

“Stop looking only to your physical needs!

Your ancestors ate manna but died!

You who ate when I fed the 5000 will die in time!

But belief in me is ‘food’ that leads to eternal life.”

Jesus, the bread which now comes down from heaven sustains those who eat for ever. 

This is no less the food of pilgrimage, no less a food provided directly by God,- indeed this food represents God’s very life, available to be absorbed by all God’s people. 

Jesus is offering himself to his disciples…whoever eats me…

Imagine the impact of that, with Jesus himself standing beside you, on a hot day in Palestine, as the crowds press around, murmuring in doubt or disapproval. 

A living, breathing man inviting you to eat him.

Shocking, unthinkable words.

Frightening, unwelcome words – in the same way as those words Jesus spoke at the Last Supper

“This is my body…this is my blood...”


John wrote several decades after Jesus’ death and resurrection, as part of a community that would have regularly celebrated the Lord’s supper together. For them, as for us, Jesus’ imagery - eating flesh and drinking blood - had come to life in a new way as the church shared the meal Jesus instituted.

So it is, week by week, when we gather and make Eucharist.

We bring ourselves, just as we are, broken, flawed, hungry for love and reassurance.

We bring the mess and muddle of our lives and lay them with our gifts upon the altar.

And as the bread and wine are consecrated and transformed, as Christ becomes truly present in those ordinary things made holy by the power of the Spirit, so we find ourselves joined with Christ and with one another.


There is a story told about a Eucharist that took place in prison camp – where rations were low, and morale lower.

Neither bread nor wine was available but the longing for Christ, the prayers of the faithful and the words of the priest together made this a true and holy Communion.

Listen


It was Easter in the camp. There was not a single cup. 

No bread or wine. The non-Christians said, "We will help you; we will talk quietly so you can meet for worship." Too dense a silence would have drawn the guards' attention as surely as the lone voice of the preacher. "We have no bread, nor water to use instead of wine," the preacher told them, "but we will act as though we had."


"This meal in which we take part," he said, "reminds us of the prison, the torture, the death, and final victory of the resurrection of Jesus Christ. The bread is the body that he gave for humanity. The fact that we have none represents very well the lack of bread in the hunger of so many millions of human beings…but in Christ all our hungers are satisfied. The wine, which we don't have today, is his blood and represents our dream of a united humanity, of a just society, the hope of the kingdom to come...."


He broke the bread and held out his empty hand to the first person on the right, and placed it over their open hand, and the same with the others:  "Take, eat, this is my body which is given for you; do this in remembrance of me." All of them raised hands to mouths, receiving the body of Christ in silence. The communion of the empty hand..."


Was Christ present there? Need we really ask that question?


My flesh is real food and my body real drink.

Real. Not material, but deeply deeply real.

Food and drink that sustains us to live our deepest reality, as we take our place as beloved children at our Fathers table.


“I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never be hungry and whoever believes in me will never be thirsty”

Hear Christ speak these words to you as you make your way to the Communion rail, as he comes to meet you and  answer your deepest needs.

In that tiny fragment of bread, we receive Jesus himself, all we will ever need to sustain us on our pilgrimage. 

Bread is the traditional staff of life, but the life that this bread represents is everlasting. 

It is the life of God himself…and we are invited to share it.

Thanks be to God!