What
a difference a week makes!
Last
Sunday I stood here full of hope. I told you happily that I was off
on retreat and looked forward with excitement to the prospect of a
week spent entirely in silence, working on my relationship with God.
I
anticipated sinking gladly into the peace of that
relationship...abandoning the overwhelming details of parish
life...re-learning how to rest in God's presence
I
drove to Wales, arrived at the retreat house on Monday night and
settled in, then spent much of Tuesday praying rather actively –
for Gaza and for the deliberations at General Synod.
Though
I didn't have a mobile signal, my phone was able to access the
internet – and so I heard news of the vote as it broke.
And
suddenly, the world was in turmoil and I was no longer sure quite who
I was.
I
have no aspiration whatsoever to become a bishop but the
debate on Tuesday made it very clear the the ministry of women is not
seen as good news in some quarters, despite our efforts to be
faithful servants of God and His people over the past two decades. To
be told that actually I had misheard God's call...that though I think
of myself as a priest, I must somehow have got it wrong, since women
CANNOT be priests at all.....that was deeply painful in ways that I
had not anticipated.
Bishop
Michael's letter, which I've copied for all of you, makes it clear
that this is not the end of the road. He and many others have been
wonderfully supportive of we who, certain that God has called us to
minister as priests in His Church, have struggled with the rejection
of that ministry which Tuesday's vote seems to represent. Late on
Tuesday night, after the tears and the anger, when it began to seem
that sleep might be possible, I posted to twitter
“We
can do this thing. We can go on loving & serving,& needing &
receiving forgiveness, & being the Church,because God call us to
do so
I
found it hard to be away from the parish as I wanted above all to put
on my collar on Wednesday morning and say, as loudly as I could, by
my presence if not by my words
“I'm
still here. I still love you and so does God” and then get on with
living my calling with all the energy and commitment I could muster.
Because,
you see, I am certain that this IS my calling.
That's
still where I am 5 days on, on this feast day of Christ the King.
Still
trying, above all, to be obedient to that call...to work out day by
day what it means for ME to have Christ as my King...for it's no use
regarding him as a figurehead monarch. It's
all about obedience to his just and gentle rule.
Though
this Feast emerged in the 1920s from a dubious alliance of the papacy
with Mussolini's fascist government, it nonetheless expresses a deep
and vital truth. As citizens of the Kingdom we are called to a
different kind of life – and to look constantly to a different and
higher authority.
Let's
think, for a moment, about where power truly resides in today's
gospel...as Pilate confronts Jesus after that long night of questions
and discussions. Pilate, representing the might of Rome, urbane, in
control – versus the dishevelled figure, rather the worse for a
night under armed guard...isolated, unsupported by even the ragtaggle
group of friends who’ve been his companions til now…a natural
victim, powerless, easily bullied.
Try
to visualise the scene.
Who
would YOU back to carry the ultimate authority, if you were a fly on
the wall?
It
might not be the clearcut decision we'd like...We might not find it that easy
to align ourselves with the true King - then or now.
You see, we might, actually, still be getting it wrong as we make some of our life-choices, but I'm confident that in our heart of hearts we know what the DNA of God's Kingdom really looks like, and thus how we should live in it.
You see, we might, actually, still be getting it wrong as we make some of our life-choices, but I'm confident that in our heart of hearts we know what the DNA of God's Kingdom really looks like, and thus how we should live in it.
It's
NOT, ever, about immediate, obvious success...Not about claiming the
upper hand by strength of arms or coercian or even by clever
strategy.
This
is a different kind of rule, for a different kind of King.
“My kingdom is not from this world”…
The
mission that began with his mother singing the Magnificat
“He
has put down the mighty from their seats and exalted the humble and
meek”, continued with the Sermon on the Mount,
“Blessed
are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth”.
Soon
it will reach its climax – in something that looks to bystanders
very much like defeat….because on the whole, we’d all prefer our
crowns to be made of something more glitzy than thorns.
My kingdom is not from this world…
What
does that mean for us?
Sometimes
we seem to put our own gloss on it. God's kingdom is not of this
world, so we can live our daily lives according to the rule of our
own wills...and leave God to one side in some kind of remote insubstantial spiritual realm which doesn't impact on our actual behaviour at all.
Not from this world – so He isn't really interested in it.
Not from this world – so He isn't really interested in it.
Hah!
This is the God who is SO involved in human kind that He opts to join
in with our life in all its mess and muddle, frustration and
disappointment.
He's
interested, all right.
Interested
whenever his children cry out for justice...whenever they long for
bread but are given stones....whenever we exclude or deny or try to
limit His life-giving, transforming Grace.
Christ's
Kingdom may not be FROM this world but it is most emphatically FOR
this world...for the Church of England in all its current pain and
confusion, for the people of Cainscross and Selsley, whether they are
with us in church today, or staying at home, baffled, apathetic, distressed...for all those for whom the confusion of the
church threatens to drown out the message of the gospel.
Christ's
Kingdom is founded on the sort of love that gives without reserve,
that befriends with ceaseless generosity, that values everyone,
regardless of gender or opionion, as someone made in God's image,
someone for whom Christ was pleased to die…
But
we tend to live and to love within far narrower, more self-interested
boundaries…
We
follow the rules of our own kingdoms, safeguard the interests
of those whom we find it easy to love, too often leave injustice
unchallenged…
We
pray “Thy Kingdom come…” but maybe at times we have our
fingers crossed – because we want God's kingdom to fall in with our
own plans.
But
– here's the Good News
God
is ALWAYS greater – greater than any human endeavour, greater even
than the institution of the Church (though in her true essence, of
course, the Church is herself part of the outworking of the Kingdom)
God's
Kingdom WILL come, regardless of our faltering efforts, our feeble
witness, our failures of love and compassion.
Good
news!
More,
the King who will come in judgement is the one who loves us so much
that he dies for us…each one of us, even for me.
We
have nothing to fear.
The
writer Adrian Plass tells the story of a preacher who was anxious
that his congregation should fully engage with that theme of
judgement so he placed a chair at the head of the nave and invited
them to imagine that it was occupied by Jesus, enthroned in great
glory
He
told them to imagine that, each in turn, they were coming to stand
before him, to receive his verdict on their lives. He asked them
“Now,
tell me, are you not full of dread as you stand at the judgement
seat?”
And
Plass responded
“No...because
if Jesus is there, then he will, really and truly make everything, -
EVERYTHING ALL RIGHT”
So
we don’t need to despair of ourselves, our church or of our world
as we consider this feast of Christ the King. Instead, we need to
strive to embrace the challenges of the kingdom, and to embrace those
who see the Church in very different ways.
We
need, too, to admit our own fearfulness, our reluctance to engage, to
really live as citizens of heaven…We need to recognise that God’s
kingdom does not wait out of reach for the end of life as we know it,
but is close at hand, ready for us to grasp it and be transformed.
Heaven
shall not wait for the poor to lose their patience,
the
scorned to smile,
the
despised to find a friend:
Jesus
is Lord; he has championed the unwanted;
in
him injustice confronts its timely end.
Heaven
shall not wait for the rich to share their fortunes,
the
proud to fall, the elite to tend the least;
Jesus
is Lord; he has shown the master's privilege -
to
kneel and wash servants' feet before they feast.
Heaven
shall not wait for the dawn of great ideas
thoughts
of compassion divorced from cries of pain:
Jesus
is Lord; he has married word and action;
his
cross and company make his purpose plain.
Heaven
shall not wait for triumphant Hallelujahs,
when
earth has passed and we reach another shore
Jesus
is Lord; in our present imperfection;
his
power and love are for now and then for evermore.
Excellent no-punches-pulled sermon by Chris Collingwood last Sunday about the women bishops vote. It's not yet up on the Minch website, but I'll let you know when it is.
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