I enjoyed preaching at Church in the Valley this morning (though as usual nobody would presume to comment on the content at all) - but that wasnt the breakthrough!
Nor was it that the crucifer acolytes et al grasped my re-arrangement of the end of the service, so that we were actually ready to leave when the Deacon of the Rite told us to "Go in the peace of Christ"
No...the breakthrough came when I realised that if it felt right to me to move to a certain place at a particular point during the liturgy - actually, I didn't need to think about whether this was the way they had done things before. There are good sound liturgical reasons for me to kneel at the altar step during the prayers of the people - and it doesn't actually matter a hoot whether or not this is how D, G or anyone else might have done it. I'm in charge!!!!
Just as well that Hugger Steward is safely absent. If I'd told him, the chorus of
"I am vicar, hear me roar" might have got rather wearing by bedtime!