Thursday, June 29, 2006

Perhaps I should just be quiet

I know that the thoughts and reactions of one obscure curate in one small corner of the C of E really have no bearing on the current to-ings and fro-ings of the Anglican Communion, - and it might possibly be wiser to continue to focus on my own minutiae and pretend nothing is happening at all. On the other hand, this blog is a reflection of the reality of my life, and the reality which I can't ignore is that right now I'm feeling sad, scared, and torn in all directions. What does one small curate do with all this?
I have gay friends, ordained and lay, who are feeling hurt and angry to the point of outrage at the way lines have been drawn. If lines have been drawn, I'd want to be standing with them.
I have vows of obedience in all things lawful to a bishop whom I both respect and love.
I have roots buried deep in the C of E (my brief attempt at uprooting and "going to Rome" in the early 80s convinced me that I'm undoubtedly an Anglican by choice as well as chance).
I have a deep antipathy to the idea that if you dislike decisions that are being made, you dissociate yourself from them by leaving the party (surely that's exactly what groups like F i F and the Reform parishes are doing,- and I really don't admire their tactics)
I also have a congregation who need their clergy, and who are for the most part deeply unmoved by the events of the wider church.
So, where does duty lie in all this?
I wish I knew.
I signed up for InclusiveChurch in the first days of its existence,- and that's what I'm still longing for, praying for. A Church where all are welcomed, affirmed, free to use their gifts and live out their calling under God.
I guess for the moment the only option is prayer,- and maybe I can manage to refrain from adding to the online fuorore too. Back to the minutiae, to the day of small things.


Ruth said...

I am really glad you have raised this. I have not heard "the current to-ings and fro-ings of the Anglican Communion", (have I missed something in the news?). I can imagine what’s being said and I feel very strongly indeed about inclusion in the church.

The anti-gay wing of The Church baffles me because I believe that compassion lies at least somewhere near the heart of Christianity. For one person to oppose the life-style of another person, when that life-style poses no threat and causes no harm to anyone, is beyond my comprehension.

I think that the anti-gay view within The Church is damaging The Church because it is broadcast so frequently (e.g. when Christians oppose Gay bishops) to a society that has largely embraced homosexuality. Society has made giant strides forward and in the modern, liberal age, people who are gay can express themselves as they truly are. It saddens me that The Church, of all bodies, is lagging behind on this and is one of the last, bar the BNP, to outlaw repressive and discriminatory anti-gay views.

I wonder how many people are totally turned off venturing any where near a church because of these values. It seems to me that God must weep about this.

1 i z said...

Hi K - if it's any consolation you're not the only one to feel like this.

Best Mate for a long while questioned whether she could take another job in the CofE given her feelings on this and the need to stand up and swear allegiance at a licensing.

As you say though, leaving the party isn't a great option either.

Lorna said...

we are all praying. this affects so many of us Christians at so many levels. UMC open doors open hearts seems (at times) to be mere rhetoric and I grieve. a lot.

Mumcat said...

Kathryn, yours is a voice I need to hear these days. Please keep talking. This American's had about as much of the to-ing and fro-ing that she can take. Your blog is a haven. Thank you.